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April 30th, 2012

The strangest thing happened today. I submitted a story around 10:30. And I signed on to check my student emails and grading list. All of the items are dated 4/24 or later, which means it has not been five business days and I don’t have to grade anything until tomorrow. I already put together my month’s-end invoices. I am waiting on a couple assignments. This means that for the first time in three months…

I don’t have to do anything.

Tasks Today: No Results.

Yeah, there’s plenty to do: get ahead on grading, wash those kitchen towels I forgot to throw in the laundry last week, work out, put away some clothes or take out the gross amounts of recycling piled next to the dining table. But I get to decide. It’s blowing my mind a little.

You see, I spent February and March and a couple weeks in April working on a really consuming, pretty monotonous project. From taking on that project until now, I worked anywhere from 8 to 16-hour days as a full-time writer and half-time teacher with some more freelance work on the side. I had to submit the same word count every day regardless of topic, required research or other factors, whether it took me half the day or I worked well past my bedtime. That means work sucked up weekends, I ate like a college boy, and I wore the same sweatpants for 5 days straight. I didn’t really read for fun (with the exception of the Hunger Games on our anniversary trip), didn’t play piano, didn’t go to the gym or really even move much. Didn’t clean. Didn’t shower. You get the picture.

Finally I had enough. Providentially, this enough-having aligned with an opportunity to contract with a great writing agency in Portland more or less full time (once transition time is over). I have no idea what this will actually look like or what the summer will hold, but I’m so excited.

Two weeks ago, I gave my notice for the writing project.

On Friday, I submitted my resignation for my half-time teaching position so that I’ll be able to focus on writing completely once June is over.

Is this really happening? Eight months after I bought business cards and started a website, I am well on my way to meeting my goals.

I was so, so afraid it would never happen. (And truthfully, I’m still afraid of what’s to come.)

I’m learning—slowly, maybe—to put away fear and walk boldly.

brynna

April.

April 19th, 2012

What I wish I were doing right now….
[photo credit]

I always do this….Yes, I’m referring to the fact that it’s been a MONTH since my last post. :) But for once, I don’t feel guilty about it. That’s because I have been working harder than I have since my master’s program to accomplish a whole lot in a very small amount of time, and I just haven’t had the energy to let you in on it.

People who talk about the feast and famine of freelancing are not lying. Turning down work seems ludicrous when the presence of a next project is never guaranteed, so self-employed people tend to sit around for days and then go on crazy late night and early morning binges. I have never been dependent on coffee, but I’m seriously considering going there after this morning.  Not only did I get up at 5:45 and pump out two of today’s articles before 10 while also doing a few dishes and making breakfast for Eric and two breakfasts for myself (who knew mornings could last this long??), but I also decided I should actually blog. Slow down, coffee. You’re too good.

Lest I deceive you into thinking I’m always this productive, yesterday I wrote a total of two articles, along with only a couple other very small projects. My mind wasn’t present, my body was lethargic, and my research was hard.

Thankfully, I have a slight break on the horizon: tomorrow I’m taking a trip to Spokane to visit my family with my best friend, and the job that’s currently taking up the majority of my time ends this week.

To tell you the truth, I just have not felt like blogging. My creative energy has been stamped out by some very tedious writing projects, and the last thing I want to do at the end of the day (which, many nights, hasn’t been till 10 or later) is continue to stare at a computer screen. Instead, when I do take breaks, I’ve been enjoying getting out in the nicer weather we’ve been having, interacting with church friends at a couple events, and sitting on the couch watching How I Met Your Mother with Eric. It’s the little things…

I’m extremely excited for what’s ahead, though, and I hope to begin posting a little more regularly about my process. I’ve said shockingly little about what freelancing is truly like now that I’m actually doing it consistently.

Rambling post over. See you next week!

brynna

I was about to…

March 22nd, 2012

gripe about being sick

or complain about the frustrating company I’m doing a project for

or make excuses for why I have not blogged in a while

(woe is me)

BUT

It hit me this morning.

You know how sometimes you work so hard for something, but then when it finally comes it’s already the new normal? How you can anticipate a dream for so long and have it materialize so gradually that when it happens it’s nearly routine? How gratitude can escape so quickly in the midst of all this just because the new doesn’t meet fairytale expectations every single second?

Well, friends.

I am writing.

From my home.

Calling my shots (mostly).

Cuddling with my cat.

Making a full time income (for this month).

And that is not lost on me today.

brynna

750 words

March 16th, 2012

Eric showed me a site not too long ago that I was eager to get on board with.

750 words is a website/community where members write “private, unfiltered, spontaneous, daily” entries in a journal of sorts, but no one can read the writing.

It’s been a great tool for me this week as every entire day has been taken up with a large writing project I’ve taken on.  After my quiet time and breakfast, I jump on the computer and just write whatever comes to my mind. No filter, no worries, no editing as I go (sometimes no editing at all). The site alerts me when I’ve written 750 words, then I save and it shows me a page of analylsis, with bars and graphs and stats based on my words, similar to this:

It also shows me frequently occurring words, categories my writing was concerned with, the weather while I was writing, and my WPM speed at every minute mark throughout my writing.

What do I use this for?

Prayer. A brain dump. Meditation. Getting my mind going. Practicing writing without thinking or editing.

If you decide to try it out, let me know what you think!

brynna

Recipe: Pear, bacon and bleu cheese flatbread pizza.

March 3rd, 2012

It’s been a long time since I posted a recipe. Most of our cooking in this season is done quickly  and with hopes of many leftovers for lunches and dinners without extra cooking. But I posted a picture of last night’s creation via Instagram, and many of you thought it looked delicious and/or asked about the recipe—so for you, here it is!

Oddly, last night wasn’t much different from previous nights intention and ingredient-wise… except I was in one of those moods, which coincidentally has carried over into today’s gingerbread waffle making, kitchen tile grout scrubbing and floor mopping.  I call it “I can absolutely no longer look at a computer screen, my body needs to move, and it’s been a while since I’ve put effort into homemaking beyond the bare minimum.”  Also coincidentally, Eric hasn’t been feeling well, so into the kitchen I went, alone, feeling a little creative, and with the leftover stars aligning.

Leftover stars aligning? Let me explain.

I’m so not one of those cooks who plans what to do with my leftovers. If I’m really on top of things, I sometimes manage to have the foresight to cook extra diced chicken if I’m using it two nights in a row. But I also routinely (like right now) have things in the fridge like 3/4 a head of cabbage I used for one night of tacos. I entered this week with a vague idea that we’d make a bacon and pear pizza. We almost always keep bacon and mozzarella on hand, I make my own crusts, and I knew I’d be able to figure out some sort of base. Luckily, it was a combination of random leftovers that really made this pizza special.

How to make really good pizza, Brynna style

1. Decide you don’t feel like making a pizza crust. Realize you have some leftover flat bread from curry last night. Oops, you already stuck it in the freezer. Throw it in the 350˚ oven to thaw it.

2. Chop and fry up some bacon (3 slices in my case, for 3 flatbread rounds). Drain the grease. Realize you have a perfect amount of leftover chopped red onion in the fridge. Give that a go-around in the same pan.

3. Shred some mozzarella cheese. Slice the pear.

4. Smell something cooking and realize that the flatbread’s still in the oven. Open it up to discover breads that are not burnt but are puffed up and quite toasted. Take them out, smush them down even though the tops are now all crumbly, and hide the big bread flakes under a blanket of alfredo sauce.

5. Throw those guys on a cookie sheet, add shredded mozz, bacon, red onion, pear, and bleu cheese crumbles that were in the fridge.

6. Realize there are no vegetables on this thing. Grab some spinach and chop it like basil for a little vitamin garnish and the illusion of health food.

7. Return to oven until cheese is melty. Broil for the last couple minutes to speed up browning.

8. In the mean time, if you’re so inclined……see the unused half-pear on the counter and a lone apple in the fruit bowl. Chop them up really quick, toss them with a dusting of cinnamon, sugar and flour, and throw them in ramekins.  Use your fingers to smush up some butter with sugar, cinnamon, oats and flour and put it on top of the fruit. Dessert!

Pear, Bacon, and Bleu Cheese Flatbread Pizza
or, the recipe without the play-by-play, for those of you who don’t like rambling. C’mon.

Ingredients:

3 Trader Joe’s flatbread rounds
About 1/2 c jarred Alfredo sauce
1 c shredded mozzarella cheese
3 slices of bacon
3 Tbsp chopped red onion
Half a pear, thinly sliced
3 tablespoons bleu cheese crumbles
8(ish) baby spinach leaves, chopped in a chiffonade

Directions:

1. Preheat oven to 350˚.
2. Fry bacon in a skillet; drain grease. Add red onion and cook 1-2 minutes until softened but not translucent.
3. Toast flatbread. Watch closely!
4. Remove from oven and top with Alfredo sauce, dividing evenly among three rounds.
5. Top three rounds evenly with remaining ingredients.
6. Return to oven just until cheese is melted and begins to brown.

Serve with wine, and follow with apple pear crumbles (but you have to read the rambly recipe for that. Step 8.)

Enjoy!

brynna