I’m having a baby.

There, I said it.

You have no idea how long I’ve wanted to tell. But the timing didn’t seem right.

It still doesn’t. But the fact of the matter is, I’m having this baby in two months, and well… maybe there’s no perfect time to announce the biggest secret, the most exciting news, to a blog readership filled with mostly people who already know because I’ve told them in person. It just makes my thoughts a little bit more uncomfortably spotlighted than normal to reflect on something so enormous.

I’ve surprised myself with how private I’ve been about all of it. Territorial is another word. I can also think of worse ones.

At first I wanted to just wait for sure until we were out of the “danger zone” of the first three months. But then we got used to keeping the secret, and there was something so nice about having the secret. Especially since I’ve been feeling overwhelmed by social media and oversharing in general these days.

And then we lost Kieran. Right around the same time we went slightly more public with this photo on Facebook:

baby

And it seemed all wrong again, the mix of emotions and the needing to let myself sit with that reality for a while. Honestly, I went two good weeks hardly thinking about the baby.

So we kept it offline. And the more people we told in person, the more it seemed like that’s how life is supposed to happen. Not broadcast with big, bold pleas for attention or the assumption that this baby is the most important baby who ever lived. Because he’s not. (Not to you, anyway. And really, not to us either.)

But the unfortunate byproduct of my privacy is that people who do want to just genuinely share in our joy — maybe you, if you’re just finding out — haven’t had that opportunity.

So here it is — my coming out.

I am seven months pregnant with a so-far very healthy and active baby boy, due September 14, 2013.

Now to resist becoming a mommy blogger…

Love—

brynna

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  • http://www.edgeofwondertravels.com/ Deb Miller

    Congrats Brynna! I couldn’t be happier for you!! And I totally understand the impulse to keep things a secret… We live our lives online in total these days, and sometimes it seems unavoidable. I was getting ready to take a step back from social media when I then decided to launch a business so instead I’ve ended up leveraging it even more. :)

    Anyway, this is really great news and I feel privileged to share in your joy and anticipation! I will be praying for you over these next couple of months as you finish getting ready and welcome a new life into yours!

    Virtual hugs to you, my friend. :) And the Lord’s blessings.

    • http://www.brynnabegins.com/ Brynna Lynea

      Thank you, thank you! Yes — it’s a strange world and time we live in. :) Hope your business launch is going well! That’s its own kind of birth and parenting, isn’t it?

      • http://www.edgeofwondertravels.com/ Deb Miller

        Yes, in a way it is! I’m nervous and scared and excited all at the same time… It’s not nearly as cute as a baby, though! :)