Posts Tagged ‘my role’

Who am I now?

Thursday, September 1st, 2011

[This picture has nothing to do with my post. But it’s awesome.]

If you know anything about my husband, you know that he’s smooth sailing, 99% of the time. Me? I prefer the drama of the shipwreck, the tempest, the first sight of land, and washing up on white sand, at the same time breathless and exhilarated. So how fitting it was, this last week, when just after celebrating his quarter-life mark, I was the one with a crisis.

It goes a little something like this:

Eric and I have both always thought of the time after marriage and before kids as a time for us both to work, get to know each other better, work out kinks in our relationship and leave a little flexibility for life’s little surprises. We planned on a few years of us working full time jobs, paying off student loans and saving for a down payment. Then we’d buy a house and start thinking about a family.

The reality is we’ve both struggled to pin down full time, fulfilling employment since our wedding. Eric landed an amazing and fully deserved position this summer, a huge huge huge blessing for our present and future after a couple years of uncertainty. But I’m still having a hard time. With finding work, yes. But even more so with knowing what that work should look like. (more…)